Who else would take us? Who else would step into this life we live and embrace it? It's really just an inside joke between Mark and I, but it has some truth too. We work hard at keeping our friendship and love strong, not only because we both see that as a priority, but also because neither of us would want to start over with new problems to work through. Thankfully, we both are strong believers in "the grass in not greener on the other side of the fence." Where we may have jealousy because someone seems better off than us, we both know that things are not always as they seem. People who are financially more stable than us may have that, but do they have a marriage as easy and loving as ours is? We expected to be in a much better place by now in our life. We expected that working hard and doing the right things for ourselves and our family would somehow make it all work out. That, in many ways has been the truth. We have made devastating financial decisions for the good of our kids and our mental wellbeing. Things like closing the daycare and my staying home to be with our children, Mark's going back to college and working outside the home, these decisions have not had a positive impact on our financial security. But we continue to enjoy each other's friendship and company because we have chosen to except that "it's only money" and we have much more than that. So the joke between us is that we must work at us, because no one else in their right mind would want either of us and the burdens we both carry. To quote the Beatles ~ "Money can't buy me love."